no choice

i don't have a choice.

i have to work harder, smarter, faster, and stronger.

i will not let myself become overwhelmed...

Even as I need support, I know my family can't be there for me right now.

So I must carry on and be strong.
It's a time of great trials, it's a time to prove myself.

I have to reach down into the vast reserves, into dark massy pits of energy which were once directed towards nothing good, nothing good at all. Redirect them.

For everything, there is still beauty in the ashes.

I also must work out today.