raw

i don't know why i feel so raw right now.
everything is at the surface.
i feel defenseless and yet i'm still trying to hold on - keep going, keep moving forward, keep up the momentum.

i just feel raw and vulnerable. and tired. really tired. and drained. like i need some support. i need something solid to lean on. i need someone solid to lean on.

i don't what to be a one-woman island forever. i don't want to shut the doors and build any more secret lives.

what are my options? i don't know if anyone will get it. get me. accept me to the tilth.

i am flotsam right now.

everything is vapors.